Lost in Translation...

It has been a really long time since I last colored a picture in my coloring book. I have so much more vivid images to share. Well... I do not know where to begin. Happy New Year of course. And I would like to say that I have changed a lot since the year the stared. I am more controlled at this moment literally then I was 1 hour and 30 minutes ago. I had to revisit my secret. I was to lost in the moment this past month and I have to say I am more happy now then I ever been.

The issues that I have gone through is because of the story I have been telling myself. The way I see myself.

ISSUES!!!

1st Issue: Dwelling on my past.

- I have to admit that my past is not a pretty picture. The things that was done to me are not even a piece of the Disney childhood my peers had. And it really was hard for me to finally embrace. But I resolved that issue by realizing that I have to FEEL more greatness and in order to experience such GREATNESS.

2nd Issue: Living as if Life is on pause.

- I am , honestly, a bit controlling. And it is sad to look back and see how much time I wasted on trying to put life on "PAUSE" and heal or fix the things or situations that did not go my way. This has caused a lot of stress in my life and I was clueless towards how much dilemma it was causing.

(working on that controlling characteristic of mine)

3rd Issue: Fighting for little things.

-(Relationship Issue) "I do not like closed minded people." I have said this so many times in my life. But being in a relationship like the one I am in. I was put out in the open on how hypocrite I turned out to be. I BECAME THAT CLOSED MINDED PERSON I DISLIKE SO MUCH!! I would focus on only one perspective. I would pick on my partner for not caring for the little things that I didn't look at the big picture. (slap on the wrist) THE LITTLE SH*T DOESN'T MATTER. LIVE, LOVE AND LAUGH AT THE RIDICULOUS THINGS YOU'VE DONE BECAUSE YOU TRY TO BE PERFECT!

I am going to move now better than I ever moved before. I am so sure of myself. I just hope I don't loose focus when my impatience creeps up from under me.

Care for your dreams. You are your dreams.